5 Signs of Aging, especially when you hit mid-twenty.

Oh ya this is scheduled post, by the time you read this, I'm on the way to airport for secret holiday. hahaha...

So where were we?

oh ya, 

5 Signs of Aging, especially when you hit mid-twenty. 

Yeah, based on true story.

• Found myself dead tired when the clock hit 11pm and wide awake before 7am.

I mean, I used to sleep like 12-ish every single night and still very energetic on the next morning. But now, my eyes can’t take it anymore when the clock hits 11pm-ish so I sleep like a log, snore a little bit, and on the next day, I wake up as early as 7am in the morning! Don’t know why but weekend is also like that! Now knowing the importance of beauty sleep, I even desire to sleep more! Sometime I do a 15-20 mins power nap in the office, too.  Hehehe….

• Found myself not fancy anymore of Friday night. 

Instead, I’m looking forward to Saturday morning. Sorry , but my Friday night not that happening anymore. Normally after gathering, we will then have second round (or third round). But now, I prefer to go home to sleep in early so that the next day (Saturday!), I can wake up early for a morning run. After that, I will then go to supermarket to buy groceries, making salad for the day, haih talking about aunty life!

• Found myself finding eye creams for myself.

Ok ah not too extreme. But now I’m on the roll of finding the eye cream for my….dark circle. It is so bad until I can see the hollow of the eye (not hollow of the cheeks ok!) so I really need to do something about it. Otherwise my face is so pale like vampire lack of blood. Can someone suggest any good eye cream for dark circle?

• Found myself to get motivated to live a healthy life style. 

For example, I’m craving for healthy salad rather than fast food. Eat cleans, train means, and don’t drink alcohol anymore. I used to like Asahi beers but found out that every time I drink it, my stomach is so bloated so I stop ever since. Ok ah maybe special occasion I will then drink a little bit but not on daily basis. Talking about beer belly sorry I don’t want one, please. Rather than gulping those alcohols, I force myself to drink healthy drinks such as water and green tea.

• Found myself not so ambitious anymore. Not so risk taker anymore, but more like calculated risk? 

I mean, I will think thoroughly about pro and contra before making the decisions. And give no expectation to the people surrounds me. Coz I learnt the hard way, expectation leads to disappointment so I don’t want to even have expectation in the first place. But its different story if it’s to myself, I will set expectation high up to the heaven so that when the things not doing well, at least I still can enjoy the cloud, you know what I mean?

And sorry not related, I keep on telling myself there’s no way I’ll go astray when there’s someone who dear to me call me, mama, rite? Furthermore, now I’m serving in usher ministry in church so I need to behave myself and be a good girl.

Wah! Time flies so fast when I was 15 I wanted to quickly reach 20, when I was 20 I wanted to quickly hit 25, and now when I was late twenties and discover the power of aging I want it to stop! Completely! Haih life is full of surprises!

Thanks guys, for reading my (another) rambling post. LOL

-Deb-

This is how I feel after serving in usher ministry

As per title, this is how I feel after been serving in usher ministry for 4 months plus.  

I started Ushering on 17 August. Clearly remember at the back of my mind because it’s Indonesia’s national day. Hehehe.

• Challenges:

What I feel initially…

Trouble waking up early in the morning

Especially waking up Giselle early in the morning. So many things need to be done. Firstly, I had to make arrangement to sleep in early on Saturday night in order for us to wake up early on the next day. Sleep deprivation = grumpy toddler... So to set up her mood right, I tried my best to give her enough time to rest.  Most of the time, we will sleep in as early as 9pm. What we do, brush teeth, wash up, change pyjamas, chit-chat pillow talk, and etc (which already took 1 hr), and by the time she’s in REM mode, it was already 10 plus. And then the next morning what we do, I wake up around 645am, do my own stuffs, and wake her up at around 7.30am, bath her, get her ready, and left home at around 8am. The best part is, I can do multitask such as doing my make up while instructs her to wear her own shirt hahaha talking about the power of word! 

You know what? God is sooo good! All the time! He always provides us with cab every time we stepped out the house! Amen!

• Baby sitter for the day

I have privileges to choose the nanny of the day, thanks to my LG’s support. But for the first few weeks, I was worrying too much, will she behave, will she throw tantrums, will she miss me or feel left out, and stuff like that, while I’m trying to focus on my usher’s duty. Try to hide away my worry but I know deep inside my heart, nothing good comes out of worrying the unnecessary things.

So after few round of weeks and she get to familiarize with sisters in church….she doesn’t mind to go with them now and surprisingly (based on nanny of the day’s feedback) she is behaving super-duper well…I guess it’s about hitting it hard for the first time and slowly building up a habit…

And suddenly, she become very independent… like eating breakfast by herself such as big girl…go toilets doing her own business by herself. Well, kids are rotten spoilt when the parents around, do you agree?  And when parents is away suddenly they’re like, hey, I’m a big girl/ boy yo!

• Internal struggle

Ok, this is my internal struggle but I decided to share it here. During ushering, I have trouble to ask people to move seats during service. The reason is because I don’t like to be asked to move my seat that is why I don’t like to ask them as well.

But now it’s getting better already, if I ask but they still don’t want to move, what can I say? Just nod politely and smile lo. For what matters is our response not our initiative. I mean, we can initiatively ask people to move in but if their response is negative (not happy/ black face), we can only just smile and let it be.

And then, all the church goers, why you come so late?

Worst, many people still come late, nearly at the end of the sermon! It was like 10-15 mins before sermon ends, what’s the point of coming then? Should you wake up a little bit earlier on Sunday, and come 3-5 mins before service start? Early bird catches more worms, so does an early church goer receive more WOG...

Ops sorry for the rambling…

So far, during ushering, I’ve been challenged to:

1. Pray for other people. Many times…I do have difficulty to pray for other people especially in English. I mean, I’m the expert saying prayer to myself because I know myself more than anything else in this world, but to pray for other people? “I barely know you”, this kind of feeling. Because I don’t know whether I will be praying repetitively and sounds dramatically boring anot. Haiz…I shouldn’t let this little thingy bugged me and just pray. God please help me.  
2. Greet people with smile. I love being Greeter, I mean, my braces are invisible but I can’t smile that BIG and show off my braces, just like that, rite? So until I take off my braces I will just smile moderately, for the time being. Surprisingly, almost 60% of the church goers avoiding eye contact with the greeters, some of them just pass by and play with their hand phone. But I’m quite satisfy with the rest of 40%, they will still greet, smile, and sometime, reply, “good morning” and “thanks”.  So it’s all good.

3. There was once, I helped a lady, a church goers, who’s feeling unwell during service and wanted to go toilet, I accompanied her to toilet, just to make sure that she didn’t tripped off or something like that. She told me that she just went for operation or something like that, and surprisingly she shared her little story with me. I really appreciate when people just come to me and open up to me sharing her life story.  After that, she thanked me countless time for listening to her story. This small little thing, it somehow, refreshed me from inside out and made my days completely. See…simple gestures but bring smile to my face J 

Ok I think that would be all. Every time serving is a new experience to me. From unplanned peeping seeing my crush till learn how to pray spontaneously. Learnt many new things, meeting many new people, serving together as a team, and best part is, grow together in Jesus Christ. There’ll be more challenges in this ministry and I’m so ready for it. But hey, with God everything is possible, rite?

Amen.