As much as I'd like to keep this post really real. I got much to do on hand. Hence this is the only time that I have now, to quiet down, to relax myself....to sit down and blogging.
One day, I've been so tired to having battle with my skin condition. The most nemesis in my life. Acne. Pimple. Zits. Spots. Bumps. Whatever you call that...hmm...White heads. Black heads. Any heads. All these names are the results of CLOGGED PORES.
I know if you see my photos or see me in my real life, you were like, oh are you sure, Deb, you really have a bad acne? Your face seems like very smooth and clear. You don't need to waste money to see dermatologist and bla bla bla....Oh snap!
If I ever get that kind of questions from someone (or rather, I think I already got that kind of questions recently, haha). Deep inside my heart I'm gonna curse him/her upside down but errmm...okay. Different people have different minds and opinions. I have mine and you have yours so let it be and pls don't judge me (at least don't judge in front of me la).
Maybe some of you have a super duper perfect skin. Flawless. No acne or whatsoever. Bless you. But for me, this type of skin condition has been bugging me and affecting me so much. Worst, it's also affected my confidence level. Hey, who doesn't like a clear and acne-free skin? So again, if you were like, really Deb, you really have a pretty clear and smooth skin. I'll take it as a compliment that maybe my skill in make up, concealing or hiding with a concealer is not bad. Seriously, now I am the master of concealing my acne spots, hehe.
Oh one more, If I ever get to hear an opinion, Deb, skin it's just a skin. It's an outer appearance. The most important part is to nurture inside. Not outside. Again, I will say, ya.... but who doesn't like to see women / man with clear skin? You prefer to have girlfriend/ boyfriend/ spouse/ children with acne spot all over their face, don't you? Slowly deteriorating their skin condition, their mind, or even their confidence level. How many people agrees that acne always associated with dirty and unhygienic lifestyle? How many people have suffered from acne and slowly decreasing their level of confidence. I don't know about you, ( and I don't want to know), but for me, skin is the biggest part in human body (yep we all covered by skin can't you imagine how scary if it's not!? *think about Jack Skellington*) And when we meet people outside, the first part of the body that they'll see is....face. So obviously, face plays a big part in our life. :-D
Enough for the rambling. Here we go.
So beginning of this week. I went to see dermatologist. I consulted my skin condition. I shared on how last time during my teenage and college year I didn't have acne at all. Literally, very good and smooth skin....oh how I missed that period of time :-(
But now, since I moved to Singapore six years ago. Stressed out and found out that acne is something that I suffered for quite sometime. I did try to eat healthy, exercise, yoga, double cleansing, double mask, did holistic facials, etc etc...You name it, I have done it. ALL. SERIOUSLY. And IT'S SEEMS DOESNT WORK AT ALL. OKAY, IT WORKED BUT ONLY TEMPORARILY. I have pretty much occasionally zits. Once its there, It will ripe pretty fast (like maybe 2-3 days) but the zits keep on popping out here and there, all over my face. I don't know whyyyy.....Oh did I tell you, that every single zits popped out, it will scarred? If I itchy hand, pick on the acne, the scar is bigger. If I didn't pick on that acne, there's still a scar but smaller la. Yep, thank you very much.
So after short consultation, the doctor examined my skin thoroughly and explained how the acne can be formed, etc, etc....(yes yes doc, I knew it already la all the theory) and then, she prescribed me topical treatment and oral treatment.
Have you heard about Accutane before?
It's oral treatment which contain Isotretinoin which combat acne by shrinking pores thus help to control sebum. Small pores= small sebum production= small chance of bacteria to grow and small chance of getting inflammation to skin= less acne. Seems like heaven, right? But there are some side-effects which is pretty critical such as loss hair, chapped lips, dry skin, emotional breakdown, the worst, if you are planning to get pregnant or you are pregnant during the Accutane course, there's high chance of birth-defects and disturb the growth of foetus. So after explanation, I did sign consent letter to agree that I understand this and will not get conceieve or whatsoever during the course. The course I think take few months. Haiz. This is my sacrifice for the sake of good skin. Call me crazy. I don't even care. I just want to have perfect clear skin. Full stop.
Acnotin is generic brand of Isotretinoin and for first month I've been given 20mg everyday.
And for topical treatment, the dermatologist prescribed me mix and match products, which contain Obagi.
I've been dreading to try Obagi coz they said, I mean internet said, that Obagi works very well to treat adult acne. Not teenagers acne like Clean and Clear or Proactive (yep, I tried both. Works few months. That's it, man. It doesn't work anymore) Although it's a bit expensive but I think personally it's still affordable if you compare to over the counter topical cream. Talking about Murad, Clinique, Shiseido, that kind of brand.
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| From left to right step 1,2,3,4,5- morning (with sunblock) step 1,2,3,4- night (without sunblock) |
So today is the third day of my course, I did feel red and tighten up especially my eyes area and mouth area. Not yet flaking but I expected that already. For this 6 weeks, I will have a major skin reconditioning means that all peels and flaking, in order to shed those impurities and dead skin cells, to regenerate new skin cells. But on the fourth week, I need to go back there again for re-evaluation and maybe given another dose of oral and topical treatment.
What I like about this doctor is that, consultation is only S$ 15.
And the doctor allowed me to keep on using my own facial wash and toner, not really hard sell of her products or whatsoever. But maybe next visit must buy liao :-( oh ya but end up I paid few hundred bucks :-(
Okay, so as I said above, pls pray for me for these 6 weeks and don't ask me why my skin red and flaky like a sunburnt like that. I'll tell you the same I'm on medication for my acne but to be precise pls read my blog. LOL.
I think I will need to continue the oral treatment for few more months and need to maintain topical treatment for the rest of my life but well, I don't mind.
I will update again after second consultation next month. Wish me luck. Bye.
-Deb-
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